Break-ups.Nearly everyone has been there and been through it at least once in their life,but it doesn't mean it gets easier. In fact it's gotten harder. The more you fall, the more you open yourself up for heartache. You meet someone who turns your world upside down, who shows you things about life you had never known. They make you feel the strongest but most dangerous emotion,love.
You see it in the movies and you always presume it will end happily ever after.But when it comes crashing down on you,you're never prepared for it. The sleepless nights, the days of worrying and mostly the thoughts in your head. How could I not see this coming? How could I be so happy but the other so miserable? It sucks. In this day and age most relationships start over social media and I hate that. I wish that you had to write letters to explain feelings to one another, to actually turn up at their house to see them, and to not have everything plastered all over facebook etc. When being given a rose was more romantic as having a holiday booked, or a walk in the woods was as equal going to alton towers. Everything these days just seems about money and showing off to everyone else. But why do you all care about everyone else?
So right now i'm at the stage of trying to get through the day with out crying. One minute i'm ok the next i'm breaking down at the slightest thing. And it's tiring. We have all heard the 'we will be friends' and everyone knows it will never happen,not matter on what terms the relationship ends. I just wish that sometimes you could continue to be friends. For however long you're with somebody you become so close.So breaks ups not only mean losing the love of your life,but your best friend too. For days after i've tried removing myself from everything. I don't want to socialise or be asked questions because the more i have to do those things the more i realise that this is my reality now.
I believe in fighting for things and that we should live our lives not giving up on things but fixing them no matter how hard they can be or what obstacles are in our way. So if time really does help to heal things then please can time hurry up. It's hard saying goodbye and trying to act like your feelings are no longer existent.
So if anyone else is going through a break up.Hold your head up high,you're amazing just the way you are and believe in yourself. You couldn't have tried any more and you should be proud to say that you fought for it. At least you didn't walk away from the things that are meant to mean the most to you.
